bleedingloveee<3

2009-02-13T05:31:00.003+08:00

you're my everything ,

and no matter what i'll never let go
its been awhile since i've updated
been sleeping alot this few weeks , nothing much happened
but the most happiest thing that happened
BABY's out and he's back in vietnam
i was over the moon when i recieved a message from him
some people say that i'm crazy to be in love with him
but this is what love is all about right?
all i can say is i've nvr regretted being with him for a second
its quite expensive talking on the phone so we've been chatting online
afew hours later i'll be going with my 888 bro&sis to AHGONG de court
its like so sad to see him go in ):
AHGONG , i'll definitely miss you de
&&&&&&&tmr is valentines' day
i realised that i always have to spend my valentines day alone
baby , i think of you wherever i go
ytd went sentosa with lovelove , kelle and papa
went emo-ing and drew on the sand
it shows how much i think about you , BABY(:
iloveyouuuuu&imissyouuu

2009-01-17T20:18:00.002+08:00

everybody is changing ,
and i don't feel the same(;

as the saying goes , time flys

just a wink of the eye and i'm discharged for 4 months le

& in less than 3 weeks , baby going to get discharged(:

BABY , i really miss you alot

i've been contacting most of your good friends and getting news about you

your bro-in-law has already passed the message to me

i'm actually quite happy to know that you never forget me while you're inside

i really hope that i'll be the first one you call when you're back in vietnam

i really got something to discuss with you , its SERIOUS

BTW , i'm still on the run

and i'm not planning to go home , even on CNY

i wanna show my parents that i'm independent

and also that i can count on myself

i'm so freaking bored laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i sleep all day long , slack all day long and i'm rotting

will update soon

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(:

2008-12-18T06:10:00.003+08:00

baby , i'll wait for you~

tuesday

BABY(: went reporting at bedok hq , i didn't accompany him as someone else did=.=

kept looking for people to bail him urgently ,

but some said okay but last minute cannot , WTH~

but at last his boss asked an uncle to bail him out

waited for half an hour till he was out

BABY(: was shocked to see me and someone together

he didn't know which one to go to , so he kept quiet while we smiled at each other

went his house and he slept , i tried to sleep but i can't

went to the toilet and when i came back someone already snatched my place

and was hugging him , kaos~ don't purposely laas

i was like such a fool looking at her hug him to sleep laas

but after that someone fell asleep

BABY(: woke up after awhile and when he saw me looking at them

he quickly pushed her hands away from him

then when i told him that i wanted to leave first

i told him that if i continued seeing that someone so close to him

i'll definitely cry): and as i typed that msg to him i cried

he wiped my tears away and asked me not to cry

cried again when i was leaving his house

went back after that and talked to his friends(:

WEDNESDAY

didn't plan to go for his court cause he didn't want me to go

but in the end he gave in and asked me to go

i was in AMK so nas and en accompanied me down to sub court

his hearing was in the afternoon but we went in the morning

so we sat there for like hours and i was falling asleep

but BABY(: and i did sms when the court was on

i didn't want him to stress bout me and someone

so i asked him if he wanted me to leave him

but he said that he didnt want to(:

we didn't realise it was lunchbreak until 15 to 20 mins later

so decided to go for lunch

and when i was walking out he asked me where i was going

i said i go out awhile and will be coming back later

then he smiled , but never did i think

it would be the last time that i'll see him

cos when i went back there

he already went in and i didn't know what to do but cry

BABY ,

i really miss the times when we're together

and the times that you held me in your arms so tight

i just hope that you'll take good care of yourself inside

i'll always be waiting for you to come out come what may

just hope that you'll fulfil your promise to me(:

i promise that i'll look you up when you're released

&&i'll love you till the end of time

2008-12-17T02:11:00.002+08:00

no mood to blog today so just a short update

just came back from BABY(: house

at first he didn't want me to leave but i promised that i'll go back later

when i left his house i cried cause i just can't bear to let him go

just now went bail baby out with SOMEONE

and he is going court tmr lehhs

i'm feeling so down , so depressed laas

BABY(: no matter what i won't let go

i'll definitely wait for you come what may

but i'm just afraid that if you go to court tmr

i won't bear to let you go):

BABY(: ILOVEYOU

2008-12-13T16:36:00.002+08:00

just a quick update before i go to work ,

BABY(: is out but i still don know when he needs to go court

but i'll find out later whe he comes to look for me at night(:

thank god for letting him come out for at least awhile so that i can spent time with him

BABY(:

no matter what , you'll always be on my mind

2008-12-13T05:33:00.003+08:00

i'll definitely miss that night
when you held me in your arms so tight ,

i'm very very very sad today ,

BABY got caught by the police at around 12am

when i saw the police van , i panicked and glanced inside

but i didn't see him so i was relieved

but when i msg him to ask him where was he , there was no reply

&&when i called him his phone was off

i told myself not to think so much but BABY(:'s friend came in less then 10 mins

to tell me that he got caught by the police

upon hearing the news i broke down and cried like hell

even though its merely a few days that we got together

i've really commited myself to you

&&for you , i'm willing to do anything

i can get you out but i'm not 21 years old yet so i can't go and bail you

but don't worry , i'll save up enough money so that when you get released

i can go to vietnam and be with you

i don't mind not coming back to singapore for the rest of my life

you must be suffering at the police station now rights ?

it really breaks my heart to think bout all the things that may happen to you

your friends told me that they were sad and 2 of them cried

if you listened to our advice this wouldn't have happened

theres only one thing that i wanna say to you

BABY(: , no matter what and no matter how long

i'll wait for you & ILOVEYOU~

i'll always remember o912o8

2008-12-12T17:14:00.003+08:00

when i look into the mirror ,

all i see is just you and me (:

okays , here for a quick update ,

didn't went sentosa cos BABY(: was tired laas

and i was tired that i fell asleep too so the trip is postponed to next week

but got to spend time with BABY(: after work

went to his house spend time laas

wanna know what happened ? ask me personally laaas

nothing much laas , and there was no SEX . LMAO=.=

BABY(: said he was going school this morning at 10 in the morning but now he's still slping

arghhhhs , today is thanksgiving day @ gracehaven

but its friday so i can't go for it):

miss my friendd there alot laas , hope that we'll meet up soon

will update more when i'm back laas

lovesloveslovesloveslovesloves<333

i know that you're the one for me ,

& i'll promise to cherish this relationship

like no other relationship i had (:

o912o8 && still countinggggggg

2008-12-11T07:11:00.003+08:00

my TWO beloved friends ,

don't you see how much i need you both now ?

after work went to lor 19 eat frog porridge with my vietnam friends ,

ah nhong , ah an& his girlfriend

on the way there i saw BABY(:

but with his the other girlf whom me and my vietnam friends call gong hieu=.=

then when i was eating ,

BABY(: went to my workplace to drink with his friend while waiting for me

he was like so drunk till his eyes couldn't see clearly

was worried so sent him home

he said that he couldn't make it for the sentosa trip today

i persuaded him and he said he'll try his best if he could

he so cute when he drunk laas

and he can't even open his eyes and if he does his eyes are rolling all over

and then when i was about to go , he said that he wanted to see me go off then he go in his house

but i insisted that he returned home first

so this thing continued for 10 mins till i gave in and said i'll go first

then he kept peeping form the corner to see if i was really going

he has a headache and now he probably is sleeping

but i really hope that he'll make it for the outing today

so many people are going laas

it'll definitely be a fun day for everyone

i'm bringing all my siblings along ,

including my youngest sister which is 5 years old(:

gtg prepare my stuffs for later and i'm damn excited laas

will update bout the whole trip when i'm back tonight

hope that BABY(: will go if not this trip will be meaningless

BABY , iloveyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu(:

2008-12-10T04:32:00.004+08:00

you'll always be a part of me , definitely

heyheyheys ,

i'm like so hardworking to blog this few days man

because of my BABY(:

hmms , even though he has 2 girlfriends now

i don mind luhhs , guess this can be called the POWER of LOVE huh ?

about our outing today ,

didn't sleep at all cos was too excited about meeting him

went with him and my female vietnam friend

he was just so sweet & gentlemen laas (((((((:

even though he waited for me quite long

he didn't even complain and he still gave me that sweet smile

and when i was about to board the taxi ,

he automatically opened the door first and let me in

unlike some ungentlemen guys who opens the door and let themselves in first

he was like damn shy laas , and he msg-ed me teling me he was sorry that he was so silent

&&&&you guess what ??!! nth much happened

just held hands with him , cam-whored abit , met up with oni and shasha for awhile

both said that he was good-looking laas

after that window-shopped for awhile till he walked into mini toons ,

and that was when he started talking in vietnam language to my vietnam friend

my vietnam friend then told me in chinese that he wanted to buy me something

so that it can remind me of him when he goes back to vietnam next month for chinese new year

but i insisted that i didn't want anything and asked him save his money

in case of any rainy days in the near future

seriously he is like so sweet luhhs

how i wished he could be mine , only MINE

watched quarantine , that movie totally sucks lor

those who plans to go and watch that movie pls think twice

BABY(: was quiet throughout the whole movie

even though i jumped at the sudden appearance of the rabies-infected asshole

(who scared me and made me shiver throughout the whole movie)

he just stared at the screen as if nothing happened

maybe it was cause he didn't understand the movie well as it is in english

BABY(: only talked when he wanted ask me if i was cold and what time i'm supposed to reach home

i can say that nowadays this type of guys are hard to get lo

i think that i'll wanna marry him(if possible)

or maybe a vietnam guy who is just as caring as him

i get to see him almost everyday outside my house

but i'm not really happy seeing him outside my house

cos he's doing illegal things and it makes me worried that he may get caught any time the police come

and also that theres so much girls outside my house that are so GATAL

i just wish that he'll heed my advice to continue studies instead of doing illegal things

will upload the pictures that were taken soon luhhs

i just gulp down a whole botlle of tiger

and started thinking so much till the state that he left me*CHOY*

i swear and promise that i'll stick with him forever of possible

(nobody gotta love me better , i must stick with you forever)

but theres a obstacle on the way to my goal ,

i'll just let nature take its own course then

cos' whats mine is mine

whats not mine will nvr be mine

no matter who you choose ,

i'll respect your decision and stay if i'm supposed to .

2008-12-09T06:09:00.004+08:00

love me the way i love you ,

i'm so so so damn happy today luhhs ,

i'm together with that BO ((((:

not really , but just part time first

was like so damn happy mannnnnnnnn~

laughinggas&angeline ,

how i wished both of you are here

to let me update you both about this

but nvm , i still can update you guys on weekends

i'll behave myself de

no more childish nonsense from me ever again ,

PROMISE(:

you guys really rock my world man ,

and i can tell you that i trust you both more then anyone else

i'm like so excited till i can't get to sleep ,

later i'm going out with BO & one of my my vietnam friend to VIVO

to catch uo with JESLIN for awhile

& also to catch a movie so that BO and i can spend time

&&&the next outing i have with him is this thursday which is my off day ,

&we're going to SENTOSA to have fun in the sun

but still not confirm yet cos he needs to work at 5pm

seriously , you're the only one who made me melt ,

and even though its merely a few days that i got to know you,

from the bottom of my heart i can say that i'm totally into you

&this is only about you and me o912o8

2008-12-08T08:07:00.004+08:00

i've never felt this way before ,

&i really do hope that i'm not wrong this time♥

here to update about ytd ( in fact it was around 3 or 4 am this morning)

i found out that the ~~THAI~~ guy which i admired is a VIETNAMESE

woots~ , i'm like damn hyper over him laas

when i was preparing to pack up my things and go home ,

he came and that was what made me stay at my workplace longer XP

&&&there was this female vietnamese friend of mine who knew him

at first i didn't know that she knew that guy

but after i told her that i admired him ,

she reacted damn fast , approached him and soon .......

we started sms-ing each other(;

ohhhhhhhhhhhh ,

his name is BO♥ & he's 18 this year

just hope that this time

things would work out well

and he is like so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee laas

i'll be able to see him in the afternoon later((:

its like so long sinced i loved

& i almost forgot what LOVE is

congrats to the two person who just got attached today morning

last longgg longggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

thats all for now , will update bout him more if i can

2008-12-07T09:59:00.004+08:00

&&& all i really want is to hold you tight&treat you right .
myyyyyyy blogggg is almosttttt deaddddddd ,
thats why i'm sacrificing my sleep time to update
nothing much happened , its the same old routine for me everyday (working=.=)

although the pay that my mom gives me for helping out is so measly

i stil think its kinda fun as i get to learn alot of things from people there ,

i get to see all types of people from different places ,with different cultures and backgrounds

and just a few days ago , theres this ch8 actress(the slimfit commercial one)

@ my mother's coffeeshop with her friend(also an actor)

she looks nicer in real person but just abit too BONE-y

&&&&theres this DAMN cute thai guy whom i admire ,

he's like damn cute laas *blushblush*

i get to see him almost EVERYDAY (:

ohmygod , time just passes so damn fast laas

next thursday i'll be taking my results alreadyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

all the best to me &may i Rest.In.Peace

waitttttttttttt , not to forget something

thanks for all those that have been with me thru my ups&downs

its you guys where i learn true friendship for ,

i really appreciate what you've done for me

i don't have to name anyone

cause i betcha know who you areeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

2008-11-26T13:38:00.001+08:00

btw , today is WANYI&JIAYI de actual birthday ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY , BITCHES

2008-11-26T11:15:00.006+08:00

ytd was my off day , went to shop @ bugis and bought new slippers . i then went for ERYI's some sort of birthday party@ KALLANG LEISURE de KBOX(:
everyone showed cramped faces when singing la , &&&ohmy there was SUSHI . hey , i know i'm fat alr but food is LOVED . &&if someone really LOVE me , they'll not mind my size be it friends or BOYF(: but theres really no wrong with being FAT la , so stop looking down on FAT people ;D
i'm like running some campaign over here , but seriously i'm thinking , being fat is my trademark , tt's why i'm called BABA(: maybe not fat , but plump . but i really thank tt special person who gave me the nickname BABA , lalalalalalalalalalalalas , don't say i not good or change hor . i still cherish you as much as before its just tt we don get to communicate like how we used to when we're in hostel . i still hope tt you'll sayang me like how you did in the past ((:&& i really thank you for helping me as much as you can when i needed help , you'll never be forgotten .
i'm like damn worried la , almost every adult i see now keeps on asking me for my N lvls result , seriously i've got no confidence &&&i'm prepared to RETAIN but i promise tt i'll study real hard when i retain la . I PROMISE. laughing gas has been away for 4 days , i hope tt she'll be back soon laas , i FUCKING miss her . i just hope the kidnappers in taiwan won't try to kidnap her cos they'll end up DYING OF EXHAUSTION , LMAO=.=
when she comes back to singapore and reads my post , she'll either laugh her ass off or maybe kill me . but no matter what , she's also someone tt i cherish loads &&she'll never be replaced.
i'm so so so~ tired with work , only one off day twice a week , WTH , when can i stop ? its not tt i don wanna help , its just tt the hours are just too long . hope tt it'll be over soon laas .
&&living without you is like living in a world with NO AIR

2008-11-20T06:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY ,
&&&MAY GOD BLESS YOU BOTH IN EVERYTHING YOU DO(:

2008-11-14T17:08:00.003+08:00

i can't seem to login to friendster
WHAT THE FUCK~

2008-11-14T00:29:00.003+08:00

lalalaas xD
today i'm having off from work
went to watch MADAGASCAR with meimei&ahboy(:
even though its abit childish , i enjoyed it loads
then went bugis street jalan jalan for while
bought a very cute watch for meimei for 5bucks
i don't know if i owe people something in my previous life
i'm always trying my best to help people
but what do i get in return ?
only to be fooled or hurt by them

i've learnt not to trust friendship so much

it's like damn dissapointing laas

one by one becos of girlf or boyf then NEGLECT me

i'm slowly getting used to it laas):

i'll get a boyf damn soon but i'm still looking ard

for the right one but don know when i will find HIM

tt IDIOT is still in boys home , i thought of waiting

but whats the use of waiting when he alr got girlf

and his girlf is waiting for him ?

since he alr said that he alr had no more feelings for me

and only treated me like a younger sister

i won't be the thickskin one clinging onto him

i want SHAKESHAKE laas xP

i hope i'll get my pay soon

& i'll be able to shopshopshop(:

I WANT A BOYF DESPERATELY ,

cos i really lack of love):

2008-11-11T22:01:00.002+08:00

back home le .
sorry for making some people worried xD
i'm buy working this few weeks ,
helping mummy out at coffeeshop
missing damn loads of people
esp . IDIOT (pls d/c faster)
will be back to blog soon

2008-10-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

sorry , will be back to blog soon
working as promoter
anything just contact me at my handphone okay ?
actually i do miss home laas
but can't do anything laas
already run le , so try the life outside lo
thats all for now
ciaos~ PEEPS

2008-10-26T13:14:00.002+08:00

back to blogggggggg(:
its been quite a few day that i did not update
cause , i just can't stand my mother
and i just ranaway from home
seriously , i don want it this way

no mater where i go i still miss home alot

no matter how i say i don't miss home

its just how i decieve myself

but since its already done its no use regretting

like i said in the previous post

i don't like being controlled ,

so thats my only choice to getaway from it

for now , i'm planning to run as long as i can

and i know i'll have monetary problens

thats why i'm looking for a job

i also want to let my parents know that i can count on myself

no need their money

everytime take from them money also never give de

my younger brother and sister take from them they give

i runaway so many days le , she only called me twice

but i did'nt answer

and she only message me not to persuade me to go home

but to lecture me , WTH , you thnk i owe you de uhhs

like i said , you're my mother , you have the right to control me

but don't go over the limit ,

cos everyone got limited tolerance de

hais , no use talking so much now

i bet you've already call the cops

just hope that the family will be more peaceful and harmonious without me

do takecare loads

2008-10-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

(((:
here to blog again ,
i'm still on the cold war with my mum bout the drinking thing
both of us just don't want to make the first move to talk
then so be it laas
i know you're my mother but do you understand me ?
the answer is no!
you've always did what you want with MY life

i could stand it in the past but not NOW

i know how to make my own decisions

and i do hope you'll stop treating me like a child

i'm already 16+ this year

and you're still restricting me from going out with MY friends

and also restricting me from which friends i'm with

i know you're doing this for my own good

but pls , don't go over the limit

cause' i'll get really angry and *poof*

i'll vanish again like how i did the last time

but this time it would be a long run

so pls i hope you'll understand me

drinking and smoking is already part of my life

and if you want me to stop

you jolly well stop first before me

you always blame me for not setting a good example to my younger siblings

but have you looked into the mirror and reflect upon yourself?

you're far more worse than me laas

and think how sensitive are you ?

when normal guy friends just call my phone

you would just assume that they are my boyfriend

and use all the fucking vulgarities on me

i really hope you will stop

PLEASE~

enjoyed saturday very much@ laughing gas's house

biantai&Bf,camilla&Bf,dear&Bf,yingying&jiemin,SHASHA,JacAng,CasanA&sis was there

got drunk , but it was damn shiok laas

me , who don't really know how to dance

simply just stood on my feet and joined the rest in dancing

being able to catch up with the rest of my girls

and thanks , for all who made it an enjoyable night

i hope that there'll be another of such gatherings (:

really , but there seems to be a few people being left out

cause of misunderstandings or conflicts between them

hope it'll be resolved soon

okay laas

will update soon

tata peeps

2008-10-19T12:52:00.003+08:00

went for laughing gas bdae party party ytd
had loads of fun and did some catching up with the GH girls
enjoyed very much
will update more bout it soon(:
ciaos~

2008-10-16T16:31:00.001+08:00

deleted all of my posts cos seemed to have some problem

will update soon(:

ciaos~ peeps(: